As unpredictable as it may be, we've decisions to make. Some are easy and others will break your heart especially when you have to make one with your head months after your heart has made it, and the two are different.
Decisions made by the heart tend to be like caution thrown to the wind. They can be exhilarating, overwhelming, confusing, and yes, crazy. The heart has no boundaries. It doesn't know society or its "norm", and worst of all, it has no sense of timing.
So thank God for the head stepping in with it's rationality and becoming the grounding force before things get out of hand. When you have to decide like that, the pain can be immense, but fortunately the heart will mend, and as cliché as it may sound, "life does go on".
But even though the heart mends, it is never the same; it carries with it a reminder everywhere it goes. For when it decided to throw caution to the wind, it also threw a piece of itself, to be replaced by the treasure received because of that decision. It's changed, and it is changed forever, but the trick is not to look at it with anger, but to understand it with love.
For the loss of a relationship, or a situation considered an "affair of the heart", is not a loss of that person. When you share yourself with someone, they in turn share themselves with you. A trust and understanding takes place and the love between you does not die, it changes, it progresses.
Sometimes it becomes deeper, more solid, and a friendship evolves. Sometimes it fades and becomes a wonderful memory that never disappears. There is always something that will stir that memory to life, ... a scent, a word, a song.
Once we become part of someone's life, we never leave. Although we may decide to stand-alone, it does not tarnish the feelings. It becomes a grasp to understand one's self-worth, one's being. And yes, we know that that it will not be easy and loneliness can be difficult at times, but we all have hurdles of our own. That is what makes us who we are.
Copyright © 2001 Ursula Romanowski